When Your Ego is Too Big + There's "No Excitement."

I'm a little annoyed with myself right now because since the beginning of 2018, I've been doing so well with my commitment to writing three blog posts per month....... except for this month. I have two days left of June and this is only my second post. Although I've still been learnin n livin throughout this month, I haven't had much blog inspo which is why my three-posts-for-the-month thing isn't happening.

Let's be real though - no one else is as strict about my three post per month policy besides me. That also annoys me.

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One of my more recent blog posts got so many reads and likes and shares that my ego started to puff up too much and now I'm wondering if my writer's block is stemming more from the fact that I'm expecting every single one of my posts to be a success, and less from a lack of "blog inspo".

Why am I telling you all this?

Because blogging isn't always easy. Not every post gets tons of reads and likes and shares. That just reality. I mean, sometimes your blog's Instagram account gets 30+ new followers in two days and you get really excited about it!! But then you do a little digging and realize that 98% of those followers unfollowed less than twenty-four hours later.

And you're left feeling uninspired, dissatisfied, and annoyed that you haven't met your three post per month goal.

So what do you do when there's no excitement? No inspiration? No new likes on your Facebook page? All of your Instagram followers are walking away?

You hold onto the truth.

This can go for more than just blogging. Honestly, this can ring true in almost any area of life. When life is looking mundane, bleak, things are hard, the bank account is running dry, friends are disappointing you, a loved one has died.

You hold onto the truth. You remember that God created the world. You remember that the Old Testament foretold of the coming Messiah and that in the New Testament He was born. And then He died for you. And He conquered death by rising again on the third day. And then you remember that everything is going to be okay in the end. Because He wins; He holds the victory; He loves you unconditionally.

And in terms of my blog, it's all about going back to, 'Why did I start this thing back in 2015? Oh right, it's because I wanted to document my thoughts.' That's the core of it. The truth. It had n o t h i n g to do with the concept of getting tons of reads and likes and shares, or an increase of 30+ Instagram followers in two days.

I never wanted my ego to grow based on increasing social media stats. Yikes, is this ever a self-obsessed, millennial sounding post.

But it's real. And it's truthful. And if only one person can relate to it, that's all I want. To be honest, that's all I ever thought I'd get back in 2015! I didn't think I'd make a Facebook page or Instagram account. I thought only like, five of my close friends would read this thing, and only one (or maaaybe two) of them would say something to me about relating to any of my posts.

But suddenly multiple people started relating to weddings and loneliness, and I thought that I was deserving of more than one person relating to my posts.

So it's time to go back to the basics, start holding onto the truth once again, and remembering that it's more about one close friend relating to my posts than it is about 30+ Instagram followers in two days, half of them being @get_new_free_10k_followers accounts anyway. Who needs that?

Not me.