Do A Lot Of That.

It's been a while. And not because I haven't been inspired. But because I've been quite inspired and haven't been able to figure out exactly which inspiring thought I should write to you about. Which seems a likely story I'm sure, but I promise it's true!

I've kept busy over the past almost-month - worship leading, driving, spending time with friends and family, taking my G2 driving test and PASSING it 🙌🏼, going to and singing at weddings, and playing a lot more Sims 4 than I'd like to admit.

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All that being said, we're only going to capitalize on one of those things in that last paragraph - and it ain't the Sims 4.

It's worship leading.

Do you feel like you know what God has called you to do with your life? If not, I'm not here to wag a finger and tell you that you'd better go out and do that ASAP!!!!! But I am here to tell you that once you figure it out, go with it. Seek God first (always) and go after what He is calling you to do.

Since finishing my first year of Bible college back in 2015, I felt that I knew God was calling me to be a worship leader. But last week I had one of those moments where it hit me anew that worship leading really is it.

It was a rainy evening, and I'd just enjoyed some breakfast for dinner with a lovely friend at a little diner that neither of us had ever heard of in our lives, and we were continuing our time together at Starbucks (bc COFFEE.) and I was talking about the church that I'd been leading music at for a couple of weeks. And that's when it struck me.

Since graduating with my Bachelors degree just over three months ago, I've led musical worship in at least four different churches/contexts. That may not seem like a huge feat, but in my mind it is.

I've talked before on my blog about having been diagnosed with Social Anxiety Disorder, and I've always promised myself that I would never let that define me or hold me back. I've failed on that front many a time as I get overwhelmed and stressed out in social situations pretty easily. So naturally, that's often raised the question among peers, friends, and family as to how I'm even able to get up in front of a congregation and lead music.

Trust me, it surprises and puzzles me as much as the next person. But I have only one answer for ya.

God's grace.

It's amazing. I was floored while talking to my friend and telling her that when I stop to think about it, of course I get a lil nervous and anxious when I go to a new church or am put in a new context to lead musical worship. But once I get settled, I'm not anxious.

I experience this sense of peace (that apparently I've been taking for granted all summer). It's like the Holy Spirit is calming me, reminding me that I know how to lead music, I've done it before, it's what I've been called to do, so let's just breathe and do this thing!!!

And I came across a quote on Pinterest that I think can speak to anyone and the calling that God has placed on their life.

"Don't just do what you're able to do;
figure out what you were made to do, then do a lot of that."
-Bob Goff

That is how I want to live my life. I could settle for some job where I sit in a cubicle, working behind a computer and not being up front in a social situation. That would be easy and quite comfortable for my social anxiety. But I'd much rather follow God into the deep end, trusting Him with every step, and doing a whole lot of what He is calling me to do.

"Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always." {1 Chronicles 16:11}